Oh, how I LOVE the English language… and I love being on break and I love sitting at Starbucks and I love, well everything at the moment. I’m sitting at Starbucks in the Heathrow Airport drinking a double tall soy latte surrounded by English speakers and on my way home for Christmas, what’s not to love?!
But, last night I hated traveling, hated saying goodbye to Steve for nearly three months, hated that I wouldn’t have time to work out today and hated that I had to fly British Airways, last time I didn’t get my bags for 16 or 17 days. Is anything ever good enough? Or do we always want more? Or is it just me?
Is it possible to have it all; that seems to be what I want. I want to be surrounded by friends and family, be healthy, have them be healthy, have a job that I love, live in a city that is fun, have tons of money, travel, buy what I want, have my student loans paid off and somehow have this perfect little stress free life, thing is, I don’t think that’s how it works, but is it ok to want that? I mean, you have to have some goals, right?
It seems pathetic at times, when I think about the things I worry about, should I rent a car for two weeks while I’m home? Should I take the train? Do I want to buy my towels in the US and pay for extra baggage fees? On February break should I travel somewhere sunny? Go someplace to train? Oh, and over the summer should I go to Poland and watch Euro Cup or Ukraine? Yet somehow, I manage to get all stressed out. Maybe it’s just my personality. I should be feeling very fortunate, and at times, I definitely do!
Right now I am just anxious to get home. I am planning on staying in Vienna at least another school year, but also realizing, this job might just be as good as it gets. Of course, it’s not perfect, I don’t expect that, but it’s a safe city, I love my apartment, I have some friends, I can train easily, especially with my bike trainer, I mean all in all it’s all pretty ok, but is ok enough? I was talking over whether or not I should look for a new job with a friend of mine and as we were talking it through, and she was explaining what it was like to live in China and what she thought of her time in Hong Kong, I just started to realize that maybe Vienna is the place for me. So, maybe it’s time to act like I live there. I think while I’m home I’m going to go through all of my things and see what I want to ship over, I don’t even know what I still have at my mom’s, just that there are boxes of things and, well, I guess my things should be where I live instead of just rebuying cheap versions of things I already own…
Or, maybe I’m just exhausted and worn out from work and need to take a break and relax a bit…
Friday, December 23, 2011
Tuesday, December 20, 2011
48 hours and 20 minutes
but... who's counting. Can't wait to get on the plane home! The last few weeks have been really busy, but fun. We had our work Christmas party, I managed to drag Steve out to dinner with some friends and then we went out towards the 19th district, always seems like a lifetime away out there. The party was great, it was on a Wednesday night because we had the following Thursday off for some random Austrian that I don't even know what it is. I went a bit crazy shopping that day, I went to this store to buy Reidel wine glasses that were on sale but ended up with all kinds of random things that I decided I desperately needed after living here for over two years. I ended up needing a taxi home, but there was not one to be found. I would have to walk maybe 10 feet, set the bags down, rest and then do it again until I managed to drag myself onto a bus that I knew would take me to a taxi stand. Ha! I looked like quite a fool, but now do have everything I own in tupperware like containers.
Work is work, I'm definitely needing a break.
Everything else in life is good. Steve is still deciding where he is going for the winter and how long he will be gone, I plan to meet him in February wherever he might be. I, of course, am hoping for some hot tropical destination, we will see!
I"m totally ready to go home! I went a bit crazy online shopping, but it just seems like such a better deal at home and as much as I'd like to be that person that adjusts and buys all the products that are here and available, I'm not. I like my Crest toothpaste and Neutrogena face soap.
Yesterday was Day 1 of Ironamn Zurich training. It is fairly easy in the beginning, I will definitely run and bike more than what is suggested, I don't want to go backwards, but the idea of dragging myself to the pool seems like torture. And, I'm going to try to add in weight training this time too. I sitgned up for a swim class that starts January 12. It's quite annoying because the only time I could get in for was 8:00pm, that means not getting home until 9:30 or 10:00 and that is late for me! I have been working on structuring my race plan and trying to figure out what and when to eat, it all seems managable now, but I do remember those days that are yet to come...
For now though, I am just anxious to get through the last couple of days here and head home to see everyone. I can't wait
Work is work, I'm definitely needing a break.
Everything else in life is good. Steve is still deciding where he is going for the winter and how long he will be gone, I plan to meet him in February wherever he might be. I, of course, am hoping for some hot tropical destination, we will see!
I"m totally ready to go home! I went a bit crazy online shopping, but it just seems like such a better deal at home and as much as I'd like to be that person that adjusts and buys all the products that are here and available, I'm not. I like my Crest toothpaste and Neutrogena face soap.
Yesterday was Day 1 of Ironamn Zurich training. It is fairly easy in the beginning, I will definitely run and bike more than what is suggested, I don't want to go backwards, but the idea of dragging myself to the pool seems like torture. And, I'm going to try to add in weight training this time too. I sitgned up for a swim class that starts January 12. It's quite annoying because the only time I could get in for was 8:00pm, that means not getting home until 9:30 or 10:00 and that is late for me! I have been working on structuring my race plan and trying to figure out what and when to eat, it all seems managable now, but I do remember those days that are yet to come...
For now though, I am just anxious to get through the last couple of days here and head home to see everyone. I can't wait
Monday, December 5, 2011
Walking in a winter wonderland...
After a couple weeks of fun in Vienna it was time to head off to Barcelona to visit Heather, but first we had to go to a few Christmas markets... Steph and I had a great day making Christmas cookies and then went and had some punsch at the Rathaus, it was gorgeous out! We also went a different day with Kent and Amy to the Karlsplatz market, which is definitely one of my favorites. Thai punsch is the only one I really like, love the spice and burning lips!
Barcelona was great, well, what I saw of it, the BEST part of the trip was spending time with Heather, we went and visited a cool town about an hour away, saw some ruins, ate some tapas, talked... While we were in Barcelona we did much of the same, the weather was amazing! We went on some great runs, wandered around to amazing little tapas places, a champagne bar, Starbucks, cooking class, spent time talking and laughing and just relaxing. What a great city, I would love to live and train there. It was a much needed long weekend. I forget sometimes how nice it is to be around good friends, it had been over a year since we had seen each other last, but that didn't matter at all! Already looking forward to my next trip back in March.
Work is crazy, life is moving too fast and I feel like I am just caught up in all the craziness and not really enjoying the things I should be. I did just buy a ticket to go home for Christmas, so I'm really excited about that. Less than three weeks and I'll be home for the holidays.
Going to try to relax a bit and take advantage of the last few weeks before training officially starts up again. Which actually doesn't mean relax, it means having that extra glass of wine :-)
Barcelona was great, well, what I saw of it, the BEST part of the trip was spending time with Heather, we went and visited a cool town about an hour away, saw some ruins, ate some tapas, talked... While we were in Barcelona we did much of the same, the weather was amazing! We went on some great runs, wandered around to amazing little tapas places, a champagne bar, Starbucks, cooking class, spent time talking and laughing and just relaxing. What a great city, I would love to live and train there. It was a much needed long weekend. I forget sometimes how nice it is to be around good friends, it had been over a year since we had seen each other last, but that didn't matter at all! Already looking forward to my next trip back in March.
Work is crazy, life is moving too fast and I feel like I am just caught up in all the craziness and not really enjoying the things I should be. I did just buy a ticket to go home for Christmas, so I'm really excited about that. Less than three weeks and I'll be home for the holidays.
Going to try to relax a bit and take advantage of the last few weeks before training officially starts up again. Which actually doesn't mean relax, it means having that extra glass of wine :-)
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